Toni Tuesday?
Yes. Thats my real name.
Im 21 (almost 22) Singer/songwriter. I adore Disney and anything Ricky Gervais related. BIG Karl fan (goes without saying) Currently living in London, bumming around, teaching singing and generally being a bit of a knob. I move to America for the summer to go and teach at a summer camp which I am SUPER excited for (I’ve got the lingo down already). I’ve just gone through a big transition in my life and Im coming out the other side (scroll down) so my tumblr is a reflection of my mind. I love Johnny Cash, Mumford & Sons, Laura Marling, Noah and the whale, Ed Sheeran… Pretty much any music with amazing lyrics. Im all about the lyrics. My friends mean the world to me. I would die for each and every one of them. Thats about it really. Oh and I dress like a boy.
Music?
Im currently taking a bit of a break from music until I decide if its really where my heart lies. I kinda lost my passion during my music degree. I love singing and I love songwriting but I dont know if the industry is really where I want to be. So watch this space. I may amount to something.. or nothing. Lets wait and see!
http://soundcloud.com/tonituesdaymusic
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m_GEY9UbfqY&context=C37ea20aADOEgsToPDskIqj7AHpJrM_ie7n6mJ6a6U
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HxjzW4cXgWk&feature=plcp&context=C365b1e9UDOEgsToPDskKkPakbg3jw4yj9C14fhu5E
How many followers do you have?
At this moment in time, almost 3000. I don’t deserve any of them. They have been so amazing throughout my illness. I love you all.
Twitter?
www.twitter.com/tonituesday
Recovery?
I was diagnosed with depression 2 years ago and have really struggled with it. I have self harmed since I lost my brother when I was 13 and it got much, much worse in my depression. I was self harming up to 5 times a day. I wasnt eatiing, was throwing up from anxiety, taking any drug I could get my hands on, drinking myself into a stupour and taking dangerous risks with my life.
I went into hospital in September for 8 weeks. I presented with anxiety and depression and was finally diagnosed with BPD 3 months ago. The time that I spent in hospital was both a blessing and a curse. I met the most amazing people there who I really think have been the primary reason I am able to have recovered but there was a part of me that didnt ever want to get better. I didnt want to live. Giving up is the easiest thing to do. Getting better… thats the challenge.
I just completed 15 weeks of DBT therapy which really helped me, I recommend it to anyone with BPD or who struggles with emotional issues or self harming. I do relapse occasionally but that is all part of my recovery. Having a borderline personality means I can switch emotions quickly and I have little control over how I feel but with therapy I am starting to accept those emotions as part of myself.
I have been to some really dark places. I never thought that I would be alive right now. My plan was never to see 2012 but I am here and I am happy Im here. I woke up one day and decided that I wanted to live. Its hard. Recovery is SO difficult but if I can do it then so can anyone. With supportive people around you who believe in you, I honestly think you can achieve anything.
So whoever you are reading this, I believe in you.
Tattoos?
To signal the end of my depression and my recovery.
A tribute to the hero in my story
This means the most to me. Its to remind me that I cannot give up on a little girl that needs me. Every time I want to die and I see and realise I want to live to see her grow up. She lost her dad last year and since she has become my best friend. My little fighter.(and my mini me)
My most recent, I got this in Florida in Feb. Disney has got me through my depression. I adore everything about it and after I ran my first 5k there I wanted something that showed my progress.
Favourite blogs?
Just a few:
http://www.iobad.com/
http://picturesandquotes.net/
http://—smashley.tumblr.com/
http://depression-kills.tumblr.com/
http://love4never.tumblr.com/
http://battlingmyself.tumblr.com/
http://you-dont-compare.tumblr.com/
http://prettylondonlove.tumblr.com/
http://lovealw4ys.tumblr.com/
AND MY FAVOURITE PERSON. FOLLOW HER RECOVERY BLOG:
http:/readheaduk.tumblr.com
LOVE YOU. WHOEVER YOU ARE X
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